Christmas parties

tonight!!! yup...the TLD Christmas party is tonight and those always seem to be very entertaining. after that is the friends Christmas party which i am super excited for. couldnt really ask for better friends...and since the hang out seshs have been very few and far between cause of everyones lives being super busy, i am way stoked. thats all. bye.

honestly

im so ready for the holidays to be over. dont get me wrong...i am absolutely aware of the meaning of Christmas...and i am so deeply thankful to my God for his Son and my Savior, Jesus. but for me the holidays are just a constant reminder of my broken family. i have a great relationship with both of my parents, and i love my brothers on both sides with all my heart...but i HATE the fact that i cant just stay at home with my family. theres always a back and forth that goes on and it really wears on me from year to year. i feel with each passing year it just gets worse. i wonder if this will change IF i ever have my own family...i sure as hell hope so.